My Mom

Yesterday my mom and I got into it. I don’t know what her problem is but we do not get along. We always have something to say to each other or she just got mad at me for no reason. My mom treats me like I’m a little kid. She just does not want to let me go and be me. I am 19 years old and she treats me like I’m 14 years old. I have a little sister that is younger than me and she does not be on her like that. I just wonder why we are like that with each other,

My dad says that she is jealous of me but I don’t know what she can be jealous of. Other people says that she does not want me to be like her when she was younger but I am no were near like her when she was younger. I’m so much different than her. She just pushing me to leave and not come back when I leave for college. I’m not trying to feel like that but I’m just so tired of getting treated like this. I’m just so stressed out and ready to go.

All Star Game

My All Star game was very fun. My coaches told me to win but while I’m winning also have fun. They told me that this is a good experience for me to be doing. T have never been to an All Star game or never heard about a high school All Star game. I played with people from different schools that are better than me or worse than me. We have all been selected by the coaches to play for the east or west senior All Star game.

While the game was going on I started to get less nervous. Before we started to play I was nervous because I didn’t know any of the people who I was playing with or the coaches, but I finally got over it and played like me. I thought I was not going to start but I did. I started and I played a lot. I also ended the game. My coaches told me that it doesn’t matter who start it matter that finish. I think that I played very hard even doe it was very hot in that gym. I never sweated that much during the regular season. But I had a lot of fun playing with other people from other schools.

The Way I Feel Without Support

I’m trying to stay calm why I talk about this but the way I feel is very hurt. So yesterday was my All Star Game, this game was the biggest game since I started playing basketball. I invited a lot of people to come watch me play. Out of all these people I invited nobody came. The only 2 people that came was my coach who been there for me from the beginning and my college coach. My family didn’t come, my friends didn’t come, and my teachers didn’t come. Nobody didn’t even try to call to let me know that they were not going to make it. This really hurt me I just have nothing to say.

This makes me think that I have no support for what I am doing. This makes me want to stop doing sports since nobody care. I feel that since nobody care about what I’m doing why I should care. My happiness has all gone away. I just can’t walk around happy when I’m not. I really have nothing to say to my mom she didn’t come to none of my games this year but only one. They don’t care about me so I’m done caring.

My Day

Today is going to be a good day for me. I will go to all my classes then go to track practice then go to my All Star Game. Hopefully my classes go by good and the teachers do not make me mad today. So my first bell I’m in right now my teacher is already cracking jokes. She just mad that I have something that she want and she have to pay to get it and mines came free. My second bell teacher is my ROTC teacher. They is just nerve racking I hate going to that class just can’t wait to its all over. My third bell teacher can be cool at times but he does have A little temper.

My 4^th bell teacher is real cool he always yelling and being funny. Now on to my lab for some hours, my lab teacher has already started off my day with an attitude for no reason. She got mad at me for something that I don’t know about but it will be cool. Later on I will have my All Star Game which will be very fun. I have my family and friends and teachers coming to watch me play. This game will be my last high school game and such a good experience.

Why Me

Why Me? Why is it that I can’t wear certain clothes? Why is that people get offensive over my attitude? Why is that when It came down to me everything go the wrong way?  What is wrong with people these days? What is wrong with my friends? What is wrong with my family? What is wrong with me? What is going on inside my head? What is going on inside my family head? What is going on inside my friends head? I don’t know but I’m starting to wonder is it me. What should I change if there is anything to change?

I came to this result.  It’s not me that should change it’s everyone. Everyone have something that the need to change. No one is perfect. You might think that you are perfect but you really not. There is always something that you are holding in and just wont to keep to yourself. Sometimes you just need to let it out and things will feel better. I know that I am still working on my attitude but I also have improved it a lot. I am now able to stay calm when someone gets an attitude with me. I have learned how to control me and be me without the attitude.

I'm Ready

I’m so ready for school to be over. I’m so ready to sleep in all I want for A while and not have to worry about getting up early in the morning. I will be able to just sleep in and not worry about any school work. I will be able to work and not have to miss school for work or not go to work because I have school. I will be able to get more hours and more money. I want school to be over because I’m ready to move forward on to what I have to do next. I’m ready to move on next to college. Over the summer I will have to go to open gym for college and get everything ready for college.

                Getting ready for college will be a big step for me. It make me look like I’m just ready to move on and be more mature. I’m just so ready for it to come. I’m ready to be on my own and be away from my parents. I’m just ready to do things on my own and not have to depend on anybody else. Ready for it to come and high school to be over

My Undecided College Life

So right now I’m confused about which college I would like to go to. I have 2 colleges looking at me to go to their college. One of them wants me for basketball the other one wants me for track. I have the same amount of like for each support. So this is a very hard decision for me. I have improved very much in basketball. Some of the coaches didn’t think that I would have been as good as I was. But the way I played this year I have impressed many. I have been to the college that is looking for me about basketball. I really like the college because it is little. I don’t want to go to a big college.

 The next college is somewhat farther out. It is a small college to but it is not my type of college. This college wants me for field events for track. I’m thinking about it but I don’t know how I will do this year in track. If I reach my goals that I have set for myself then I might just take a look into this college.  I still would like to take a look at this college and see what my options are. Hopefully it would not be so hard after all.